Date: Jan’29th, 2009
Time: 1845hrs
Place: Secundarabad Rly Stn, PF9
I got down from the train..glad that the long n cumbersome
journey was finally over,glad that I can stretch myself on a land.But then
there lay another Herculean task…my heavy luggage to be put through from PF9 to
PF1.And in between lay some 25-30 stairs. Somehow I managed to get to the top.
As I climbed the stairs n reached the end of the stairs…I was welcomed by a
very common yet very charismatic view. It seemed that there was a competition
between the criss-cross of railway tracks below and the electricity wires
above. Well this sure is common but this is not what caught my attention. It
was the sundown that grasped my heart and left me gaping. I do love sundowns
and have seen many but this was something very unique.There sure was something
very enigmatic about it. I froze there itself. Lost in time and space yet
again. The sun in the distant horizon was setting..or was it my heart that was
sinking? I remembered how many beautiful things I had seen in my life…but all
alone. I always yearned that I had someone to share these beautiful moments of
my life…ofcourse I always have my family( and m glad about it) but my heart
cries for that someone special ‘The One’ who is just for me, who would understand
me, hear me without my uttering any words.If all this is too much to ask for
then I’d simplify it…some one special with whom I can roam around hand in hand,in
whose shoulders I can hide my self when afraid…just that special one with whom
I can share my soul…love him…just love him as I want to, with all my heart. I
sometimes feel like ripping off my heart and squeezing out every drop of blood
from it. Till it has no strength or scope for any emotions…how comfortably numb
I would be then . How good it would be for me then…no pain in the heart…no
cravings for my L’amore…But is it ever possible?
Many guys n girls feel like this sometimes…its so common,
(hey isn’t it called rationalizing in psychology?) But then how many of them
are single?
Hey am I getting desperate? Might be..but I had always
desired for a mate with whom I could share everything…every beautiful thing in
my life atleast if not d gruesome past.
Oh how I wish I could have him now..give him all the
respect…treat him like my
Great honored emperor…ready to do any thing and everything
for him to please him,for his smile, for his happiness.How much I want to share
my time with him..my life. I just wanna love him without asking any thing in
return save a favour…to allow me to love him…to die for him.Let him take even
the single last breath of mine but make him happy…
Oh God please now I can’t take this any more…please make our
paths transect,coz I know he is there somewhere.But I don’t know where.Please
protect him.Please fulfil his wishes.Please..Oh dear lord keep him happy
always.
Oh Sun please don’t melt away…its my blood that is draining
out of my heart…please stop…please stop for my love so that he can enjoy this
with me.
“Aow!” I almost stumbled over my bag. A passenger in his
rush had pushed me and almost tripped me. This was enough to get me out of my
frenzy. Heck! how so senti-mental can I be sometimes. And what is the logic
behind my thinking like this? How so insensibly romantic I could be sometimes!
I better do something about it.
By now a crowd had accumulated around me…some to help the
‘humpty-dumpty me’ to stand up and some because I was blocking the way. I stood
up, took a last look at the last rays of the sun and turned to the crowd to
assure that I was fine and didn’t need any help and to apologise for wasting
their times.Seeing everyting normal,everyone resumed their activities as if
nothing had happened. Standing at the end of that foot-over-bridge,with the
lonely sun returning back after a lost battle, I realized the truth,that I was
all alone in this crowd.
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