How I wish I could tell you all this...

I look into your deep brown eyes,

And I feel a melancholy strain.

You glance here & there,

Curious as ever.

How I wish to stand by you,

And say, I’ll be here…beside you…

I will help you find out whatever you are looking for.

You look baffled, lost sometimes.

I want to come to you and tell you I’m right behind.

Yes! I will help you out with all your quest.

Please let me be your shadow, that is all I  request..

You never have to tell me when you had a bad day..

For I could sense it in your temperament from far away.

Sometimes I catch you looking at me,

But then you look away..

You always catch me looking at you..

I hope that you read my gaze that says I love you..

But sometimes you just see through me..

It hurts me the most because you mean the world to me..

Please don’t do this to me..

It sears my heart, it hurts.

I shall be everything you need

I will be everything you want.

But please don’t ignore me, don’t leave me.

How I wish you’d acknowledge my presence

And realize my absence.

I will be your protection,

From the nasty world around us.

For I know, deep inside you are still a child

Innocent & curious.

I will give you a comforting hug,

A loving kiss…even without your asking.

I just want to be your soulmate.

How I wish I could tell you all this.

How I wish I could speak to you these words of my heart.

-N’s!

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

3:53:13 PM

-Naushi (Manya)

Again I miss you...

Again I miss you...

Again I miss you

And there's a burning desire in the heart to be with you.

Oh dear, but what do I do?

I have lost my chances even to ask 'how do you do?'

I hope this suffering ends someday.

And I hope that we'd be together one day.

But till then, I wonder, why?

And as I drift to slumber, I cry.

N’s!

Saturday, April 21, 2012 1:03:16 AM

-Naushi (Manya)

S#IT Happens!! - 2 years in IT

Its’ 2 years since I embarked on the journey of my career & profession.

Today is the day when I entered the mighty gates ( x ray metal detector) of Infosys Mysore Gate 1.

Yes, indeed, today is the day when I complete my 2 years in IT industry.

As far as my experience is concerned I’d say ‘so far so good’. However, this is not exactly where I pictured myself to be. I am one of those who wants everything. Yes, ‘all I want in life is everything’.

But if I look at my personal growth, I don’t find much of change or improvement in me. L

I might have evolved professionally, but personally am still the same possessive being.

I still get lost with my heart & forget my goals.

I wanted to be a high flier. In a high income group, owning a decent condo, having a posh SUV or a sedan.  But it’s been 7 years since I forged that dream & still am the same average person, living the same average life…making the ends meet…searching for a good deal for a second hand car.

I also wanted a good guy to settle down with…to have kids & raise a family…don’t know what happened to that dream of mine…

As of today, I can conclude that am an average person living an average, ordinary life. Nothing extraordinary about it…

This…pinches me..coz am not a person who would settle down for ordinary. I am an insatiable person who wants more & better.

With this pinch, here I embark on my journey... for the High Life..

'La Dolce Vita'

-Naushi (Manya)

Every Morning Every Night

Every morning I wake up with a deep yearning for you in my heart...

Every night I weep myself to bed with a hope that maybe next morning you would call...

-Naushi

20 th March 2012, 10.39am

(Missing NG in the BO workshop..)

One man...

There's just one man I'd want to be with..

To spend time.

To grow old together.

Loving, caring, sharing.

All the joys, sorrows & the life.

To dream & to share those dreams..

And to create those dreams into reality.

He is the man I wish to be with.

To peek in his deep brown eyes.

To be lost in those eyes & connect..

To unravel the mysteries that lay within..

To touch him & hug him...

His glistening, glowing, fair smooth skin.

To caress his hairs & take him in a warm embrace.

And to assure, I'd always love him & care.

And be around whenever he needs me...

For, I shall be his guardian angel & his soul mate...

Till the times immemorial.

-Naushi (Manya),

19th March 2012, 11am...during the daily project touchpoint call.

Zephrys, blow me away..

Come Zephyrus, take me away...

Far away...to the farther lands.

For I am the Psyche, lost & wandering.

Looking & searching for my Amour...

Shunned by the Amour himself..

Come Zephyrus, blow me away...

Somewhere far away, never to be found.

For I had traveled to the heavens & the dark worlds under.

In quest for the one...

Zephyrus, blow me away,

Take me away to a far off land,

Maybe a lonely island.

For I do not want this heartache anymore.

-Manya (Naushi Samad)

10th March 2012,

7.22am

Aksar waade kar to jaate hain wo..
Par nibhana bhul jaate hain

(9th march 2012, 8.15pm)